Solitude inspires….(Part I)
It’s always great to know that someone thinks the way you do. However things may be explained in a different manner as well. Firstly the notion or rather the claim that a philosopher is emotionless may not be true. A philosopher is the one who sees and experiences things from his/her own perspective. This has nothing at all to do with emotions. A philosopher is a normal human being with a distinct virtue of having developed his own understanding of things.
Also to correct, mature person is the one who gathers reasonable understanding of emotions. Swinging away from emotions doesn’t lead to maturity. Maturity leads to emotions in true sense…..in all senses. I understand bitter experiences are painful and very true that they are the best learning of life.
I have experienced a lot in life, both good and bad. Life for me is everything…and anything. Its like a class giving us a teacher like parents, friends like ours an atmosphere where we understand our purpose. We feel nice or bored going out in the playfield depending on our choices. We have our favorite teacher and also the one whom we don’t like. Although, our not liking doesn’t make him get vanished. He remains there…with all the firmness as before. Also the one we like doesn’t grow bigger…its only we that notice him more vividly.
Things can be explained to a far greater extent, which needs time and thought. Life for me has been an experience both bitter to the extremes and better too to some extent. However I don’t treat life incident by incident. Life is a continuous string of incidents that are slated to happen. Many, we are not aware of and some, who are a cause of our awareness.
Pain – It is not something to be avoided. Once you befriend this deadly beast…it is no more deadly and also no more a beast. It becomes your slave and arrives only when you give it a call. It is a rare stage and rare things are pretty hard to find. You may tend to lose your own self in pursuit of things you crave. It needs a lot of courage, determination and self-will to hunt for ultimate contentment. You have to tame your pain. In most cases your pain tames you. You cry in solitude and feel depressed. Your emotions rule you and you tend to lose way. This is lack of maturity. You need to whip your emotions to get them to the right direction. It quite difficult but then it is the only way. Please do not look for choices. I have always tried to tame my pain. My pain no more can instigate me to get angry…to be sad…to feel frustrated…to shout…to react or even to act. I cry only when I want to to…..I do not find living in solitude a tough job. I enjoy tranquility. It provides me an inspiration. It sharpens my creativity and spiritually I feel secure when I am alone. In true sense I share my pain with solitude and I am in harmony with nature.
Everyone in this world wears a mask. A mask that hides the true self from the real world. A mask that gives you an identity but even you is not aware of it. You are not, what you are in front of your parents; you are not what you are in front of your friends; you are not what you are in front of those whom you love deeply; you are not what you are whom you may dislike. Then who you are is a constant query that strikes your mind every time. The thoughts keeps hammering you conscious & subconscious mind each moment. You may spend your life searching for the answer and when you think you have it, it gives you another query…and the search begins altogether afresh.
One must think that it is more of a virtue that has been bestowed on him by almighty God if at all you believe in him. You can only believe in him when you have self-belief. So what is the difference between you and the supreme power? Nothing. I believe in myself. I am God. Nothing more, nothing less. I don’t want to propagate this fact. I don’t even want that this be made noticeable. After all, this is natural and like all natural things this too should be treated as casual. Only then can one live in harmony with nature without any elements losing control.
That doesn’t make me free of all emotions and responsibilities. I feel good in the company of few and really uneasy in someone else’s. This is natural. These emotions are my creations and are meant to be experienced. If not experienced what’s the use of their existence. Each emotion holds immense value within.
